Happy & Heavy Heart

Well, we received some really good news.  It looks like we have been approved by IHNFA.  Our paperwork now gets presented to the next group to get assigned a number-The General Secretary of Honduras.  We have been told this could take 1-2 weeks (but as we are seeing this could always take more time).  With knowing this, this is where the heavy heart comes in.  We probably wont receive our referral until next summer if we are lucky.  This really was what we have fully been expecting as I have been following my bloggy friends on this same journey, numbers are quite high.  I fully expect that our number will be somewhere in the 70's.  If it is lower then we will totally be thrilled.  I did hear through another blog the assignment committee did meet last week so we wait to see if referrals were accepted and if the numbers move.

As I was telling Andy what I found out while on the phone with our social worker, I could tell tears were welling up with happiness that we were approved and yet tears of sorrow to know that we have  a much longer wait than we originally hoped for.  My arms do ache to hold this little one, whom ever she is.  What made it even more difficult to watch though was to see our older daughter as I shared with her that our wait was probably much longer you could see the tears well up.  She was so disappointed.  I know she is looking at it that that means less time that she will be around to watch her grow up as she looks at the fact that she starts high school this next year. Yet, one of the first AWANA verses we helped the girls learn comes to mind..."we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose". Romans 8:28

Please know that as you may hear me say..."I know that it is all in God's timing.  It has been our prayer from the beginning that it would be all about Him".  I don't say this as a pat comment.  This is truly what gets me through this journey.  I do trust in God for this whole journey and pray that He continues to give us peace and patience through this journey so that He can be glorified through all of this

"...For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.  Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.  You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.  I will be found by you," declares the Lord...  Jeremiah 29:11-14a

As you read this we beg of you to continue to pray for our little one, her birth mother (I can't even imagine what pain she had or will have to go through to give her up-a little window of this reality came to me through reading  the book "Daddy Come Get Me"-I highly recommend this read), the assignment committee as they have to make to selections of what children to refer to which family, as well as the transition our daughter will go through as she will join our family and that our number would be a lower number than we expect and the time goes quick to get our referral.

One last note, if you are in the area we will be having a yard sale  fundraiser this coming Saturday-June 9 to raise funds for our adoption as well as to help others out on their journey to adopt!  If you would like to donate items  or baked good or drinks to sell please let us know.