A Mix of Emotions

A week from now, we will be on our way to Honduras to begin the final leg of this journey.  Lord willing, we will have the opportunity to spend a few days with the children.  It is somewhat surreal to think that in a few short days we will meet two children for the first time that will become our son and our daughter.  Through this journey, the Lord has been at work in my heart to soften some edges and strengthen my faith, and work on my patience and help me to see afresh the community of love and support that he has placed around our family.  On one hand, I am filled with excitement and anticipation for meeting our children.  On the other hand, there is an under-riding stream of questions and low grade anxiety.  This mix of emotions, and the daily updates on our trip and the pile of documents that need to be updated, and translated, and notarized and apostilled... has my mind running in so many directions, yet there is a peace that I can say only comes from the Lord.  In Philippians 4:6-7 we read, "...do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.  And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."  It is a wonderful promise to know that even in the mix of emotions that flood our minds, we have a God who is sovereign, and we can always turn to Him in prayer.  He may not do what we think He should do, but He will give peace to trust Him no matter what.